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Surrender - To relinquish possession or control of to
another because of demand or compulsion. To give up in favor of another. To give
up or abandon: surrender all hope. To give over or resign (oneself) to
something, as to an emotion: 'he surrendered himself to grief.'
Last month I talked about creating your own reality - taking
control of your life and creating what you want it to be. This is what I have
taught and practiced for 20 years. Now, I am learning that sometimes we can't
change our reality by forcing things to be the way we want them to be.
My latest lesson seems to be learning to surrender. Several
months ago, I started having horrible anxiety attacks as part of menopause. I
know many healing techniques which I have used successfully on my clients as
well as myself for many years. None of these techniques helped these anxiety
attacks.
I have been doing everything I can think of to heal them
naturally - St. John's Wort, Valerian Root, Cortisol reducers, Stress Vitamins,
the
Miracle 6 program, and anything else I could think of. None of this
helped. The anxiety attacks continued.
Finally, a couple of weeks ago, I realized that I was having
a nervous breakdown. As a result, I surrendered and started taking tranquilizers
regularly as my doctor had been suggesting for months. Within a few days, I felt
wonderful! The anxiety attacks stopped as well as all the other symptoms I had
been having. I regretted not having done it earlier! I felt wonderful for a
change!
I have been really stressing about losing Samantha's Nursing
care, being totally responsible for her again, losing some of my income, and
other issues. Being responsible for someone as sick as Samantha is very
overwhelming, especially since I am unable to do much of her care myself. I am
very thankful that Michael is so willing to step in and do whatever is necessary
for her.
At night, I must listen to and watch the video monitor in
case she were to choke or have problems breathing. When Michael takes my son to
school, I am here alone with her. Even though Michael does most of her actual
care, I am the one responsible for making the important observations and
decisions. This is putting a lot of pressure on me and I have been allowing it
to overwhelm me.
I was discussing this with a friend the other day and she
told me that I had to be willing to surrender. By this point, I had to admit
that the lesson I must learn is to be able to surrender. Do you have any idea
how hard it is for a control addict to surrender?
Now, I am having to learn what surrender means. Does it mean
that I have to stop trying to create my reality? I don't think that it does. I
do think that it means I must be open to new ways of receiving.
Instead of staying exhausted from not sleeping well, I am
learning to go to bed earlier and get some sleep before Samantha goes to bed.
Then, when I need to sleep with one eye open, I have had some rest and am not so
tired. By surrendering to my new reality and making small changes, things go
smoother.
Hopefully, because I am surrendering to this reality, I will
be more able to create the reality where she has Nursing care again.
"I am God. Today I will be handling all of your problems.
Please remember that I do not need your help."
It is said that we teach what we need to learn. I hope that
by bringing the act of surrender to you that it will help me to learn this
lesson quicker.
Rev. Claudia McNeely DD -
http://www.askclaudia.com - is a gifted
and caring Psychic/Healer. With the assistance of Angels, Guides and Master
Healers, she will tell you exactly what she sees and feels instead of what you
want to hear. Her Clairvoyant Psychic Readings are very accurate and insightful.
She can help you to understand where you are, where you want to be and how to
get there.
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