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The energies lately have been very intense. For many of us, the energies have
forced our biggest fears up to be faced. Old patterns, things that no longer
serve us, have been brought up to be released and healed. We feel as if our
world has been turned upside down, our feet knocked out from under us, our
foundation shaken.
Personally, this manifested for me through my son. My biggest fear since my
daughter Samantha died last June has been that something would happen to
Christopher.
Recently, he was diagnosed with gallstones. The alternative methods that worked
so well on Samantha have not worked on Christopher. Last week, he had a major
gallbladder attack. I knew that the gallbladder would have to be removed.
I found myself panicking. I was terrified that he wouldn't make it through
surgery. My partner, Michael, was working and I was terrified of going through
the crisis by myself. I was finding lots of things to panic about.
When I talked to the surgeon, who knew Samantha most of her life, I explained my
fears to him and he assured me that he would take special care of Christopher. I
felt a little better about the surgery, but still found myself panicking.
I realized that I had some major issues that I needed to heal to prevent my
fears from coming true. I teach my clients that 'Worry is prayer for what you
don't want'. I know that by worrying about something, you are manifesting that
very thing. I spent some time the night before surgery healing my issues.
While Samantha was alive, I was "Samantha's Mother". Caring for her and her many
medical needs gave me 'worth'. Since losing Samantha, there has been a part of
me that no longer wanted to be on this earth. I chose to stay here because of
Christopher, not for myself.
I had to accept that I was on earth to be more than "Samantha's Mother" or
"Christopher's Mother". I am here at this time for myself. I am here to complete
a mission that has nothing to do with my children. I had to accept that I had to
choose life even if I were to lose both of my children. This was not easy to
come to terms with, but I knew I really had no choice. I could continue to fight
learning this lesson and face more fears with Christopher, or I could accept it.
I chose to make it easier on myself and accept it.
This acceptance has been very freeing for me. I lost all of my fear of
Christopher having surgery. I am more accepting of him going off to college than
I have been. I am able to let go of him a bit.
Turning 50 was very traumatic for me. I refused to be 50 and have been ignoring
my birthday each year. Healing this issue has helped me to come to terms with
the fact that I am aging. I have the understanding that it is better to be 53
than the alternative of not being alive at all. Healing this issue has helped me
to decide to live again. I accept that just because Samantha's life is over does
not mean that mine is over.
I have chosen to let go of my "False Expectations Appearing Real" and see
reality instead. I choose to see the beauty of every day and the hope for
tomorrow.
Rev. Claudia McNeely DD -
http://www.askclaudia.com - is a gifted
and caring Psychic/Healer. With the assistance of Angels, Guides and Master
Healers, she will tell you exactly what she sees and feels instead of what you
want to hear. Her Clairvoyant Psychic Readings are very accurate and insightful.
She can help you to understand where you are, where you want to be and how to
get there.
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